I trusted God for my own salvation, but beyond that, there were many ways I did not trust God. Search for Significance proved to be a book that God would use (in conjunction with an intense critical reexamination of traditional doctrines on eternal torment and annihilation) to help me discover precisely why I didn’t trust Him.
Do not fear. These are probably the most-ignored words of Christ. It was June, 2001, and I was living in fear of just about everything.
When one’s spiritual cup is overflowing, there’s no stopping it. It is impossible. I tried. Believe me, I tried. And thank God, I failed miserably.
Sometimes, God brings greater good out of a bad situation than if the whole thing were avoided through an immediate, affirmative answer to prayer.